i know sometimes its just me .... wanting everything to be PICTURE perfect .... MUST be perfect .... but .... life is NEVER perfect ....
things in my life that are perfect :-
- iggie
- nick nick
- maurice
- our families
- ..... basically my life.....
????? ... so what is NOT perfect????
running and chasing time everyday .. that was how i felt ... there was never enough time ... everyday i was just chasing the time to complete my stuff ... chasing the time to get more time with the boys ... chasing the time to get more sleep .... just chasing time .....
this week i am working from home in the mornings ... with grandma on holidays ... i needed to be with the boys ... especially when both are sick AGAIN ....
this morning as i waited for iggie to put on his shoes and get ready ..... i saw nick nick in the garden (carried by helper) ... i walked over and realised what a BEAUTIFUL morning it was ... the sun was shining .. the birds in the trees were singing ... and a gentle warm breeze was blowing ....
i took that 1 min of that beautiful morning in and realised that i had MISSED all these in my daily chasing for time .. when time was here all the while ....sometimes someone in the office would make a comment "what a beautiful day outside!!" ... and i would gaze out from the office window and smile and think nothing of it ... and i didnt see it ...
i looked at the time ... it was 8.30am .... what would i be usually thinking about at this time ...it would either be work stuff while i am on the road .... or already in office thinking and working on work stuff ....
but this morning ... i wasnt thinking about work ... i was just enjoying that 1 min in the garden .....
soon ... the garbage truck came ... and both the boys were all excited by it ... and it passed by in just 3 seconds ... but that 3 seconds sighting made them both so happy ..... the simple things in life ... and i totally forgot about them ... and still didnt see it ....
on the car ride to send iggie to school .... i didnt drive as fast as i usually would ... i didnt think of anything .. most importantly i wasnt feeling guilty .... that was a first. ... not to feel guilty.....
when i got home ... it was 8.55am .... and for a moment i panicked and quickly sat down at my laptop trying to figure out what i need to clear today .... then it hit me ... i shouldnt be feeling guilty ...
in fact i should be guilty for scolding iggie yesterday .... he wanted to be with me while i worked ... but i just wanted to get that letter and model out ... and i lost my patience with him ... scolded him and told him to go away ... and he did ..... that i should be feeling guilty ....
promise to make it up to him today.... i will pick him up from school .... and bring him for some US time today .... just iggie and mummy ....
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